The only true thing i ever saw.
Was the burning fire, of a warming coat.
That you gave me, for a while.
So, even if we don't understand each other.
Mother, i apologize.
There's some stuff that i can't get back.
i've been avoiding stuff since a lot of time, i still do.
i try to do something, but i always feel like a razor is ripping my throat. it makes me a narcissist i think?
i'm always doing damage to others, i can't clear my mind, even if other people tell me that i can.
to me going to a psychologist, been like talking to a wall, they never get me.
It never work, it's useless.
i don't want to go too deep, i don't want to get medicated.
1 year of forgetting who i was, i was just protecting myself i realized it was just like caving a cave, caving a lie.
after unsuccessful attempts to gave up my life, i have some motivation, or something that would "save me", a light bulb who is damaged in some way, but not as much as i am.
it's very complex, in some way.
i wish i.
i wish.
i wish.
i wish.
i wish.
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